Bad relationship with food

In addition to being kinda crazy, maybe bipolar, surely an alcoholic, detached from my emotions, have issues with self worth, lazy, manipulative, etc.

I am a chronic overeater.

Gain 60 pounds (at least.) Am at least 70 over my goal weight. Sendentary. Out of shape.

Obese really.
Not to mention ill built.

I have been Bingy for reasons unknown, emotional, uncontrollable and ever present. I'm blacking out once the food touches my lips, I'm barely chewing. I come to right after I swallow.

I'm taking second servings, third, and fourth.

Constantly eating. Not waiting ten minutes for food to be prepared

When preparing food, if it takes more than five minutes. Not going to be done.

I prayed today at church. To start the year with good on my side to realign my relationship with my body God food and my Brain.