Had to read my own writing, to remember.

I just read Sabotaging a new relationship.

I don't remember the post but I was brought back to the time, feeling place.

I think I'm here again, My CurrentScrubMan. delicious African with an amazing-- well, everything.

Things are rubbing themsleves raw, between us. I think he thinks its my fault, prolly is?

I don't know. but there are ways that upset him. I can be annoying. He's annoying me. He can be annoying.

I want to be good with him. I want to be good to him, he wants to be good to me I know it.

I really hope i don't fuck this up.