Wednesday Jan 14th reflection

 No regrets. today's reading speaks about regret and guilt. Regret and Guillt don't serve us. but it's still one of the ways I beat myself up. Mostly about Kamen and Jadon. I wasn't a good mother. in the past decade we have developed loving relationships. and they are the two things that i'm most grateful to have back. Kamen is building a life for herself and she makes me so proud. she is one of the finest people I know. Jason is struggling. He isolates like I do. But I am so grateful that God has given me the gift of time, so that I can love my son. and he knows that I love him. I do wish he was happier. but sobriety has also taught me that I can't control or make him a happy person. I love him to pieces though and still have feelings of guilt and responsibility for his blues.  My prayer for today is that GOD holds and teaches and cherishes my children. and i'm ever grateful that I have relationships with my children.