Food continued...

So I considered the food for a while. Considered it. Shared it with a few people.

Looked up some things online.

As an addictive construct. Compulsive overeating can be looked through those same lenses: codependency, self worth, physical, mental. Neutral. Triggers... Ah the triggers....

I'm focusing on spiritual. I am powerless over food, it had made my life unmanageable

I'm driven by it, and it is so compelling. My body reacts to I prospect of food. I'm distorted in my motivation. It drives much of my activity. I see the negative effects in a real way. My body does not even feel normal anymore. I cannot groom myself. I won't take pictures. I won't look in the mirror. I'm in denial about how bad it is.

There is a power greater than myself that can relieve me of my compulsion.