I wish i could drink.

I'm not really sure why.

Drinking is not fun. I feel like crap and it has the potential to run my life.

But as I sit on the train. I'm thinking. A glass would be nice.

But I think I don't even know what I want.

I don't want the headache, heartache, stress or hangover.

But I want something...

It would be good to figure it out.

So I'm not stupid one day and really think it's that drink.