I'm learning. What acceptance it's really about

It's not an not igoring someone's different point of view.

Or glossing over it, pretending it doesn't exist. It's about really finding away to understand it as much as you can and really let it sink in

That is my next journey.

The African it's judgemental.

I've interacted with this defect of character in a number of ways.

Seeing it and tolerating

Ignoring

Seeing the exact flaw in myself as away of diffusing the negative reaction I was having

Ignoring

And rebelling again it. By having my view front and center so that they have to be interacted with even though he would judge me.

I know I know! What did I think? He was going to learn a lesson and change?

SMH.

Maybe I have to pray to actually accept these things, so they don't fuck with my relationship.

God grant me to the serenity.
But being judged harshly and unfairly hurts.

How do you deal with that?

I like to separate myself from the hurt.
But eventually I think I'm goaling the idea of being above it.

I think I usually am.

What other people think of me is not really any of my business.

But isn't what the African thinks of me my business. I would like to be loved and me appreciated.

I don't feel very loved and appreciated.

I think he feels he's doing me a favor.