Thought about end in my relationship

But then I chickened out.

I'm angry.

I also understand I'm loved.

I'm unimpressed by the ego, gendered way I'm loved.

I see so many lonely women.

I appreciate the little things, like attention. A gentle manner. Handsome, six foot three.

There are big things too. Fidelity, forgiveness, attraction, having someone who wants to be mine.

There are the things in making big. A need to be heard. The patience of listening on end to how much he enjoys the hear himself talk.

I'm many a  conversation. It doesn't have to me me on the listening end.

He had no desire to understand me.

Is that okay?

Is it required that someone want to know you?

I'm angry. I'm lonely. I don't like being rejected. I hate being dismissed.