There is no way to win tonight

An argument will be fatal

I can't sleep

I love the African even though, I think it's ridiculous to let this bullshit continue

But it's his bullshit

I'm not standing in the way of someone's sobriety.

No one's.

Not hers.
Not his.
Not ever

Is there a way to stop a resentment that you feel boiling into your heart and mind.

Is there a way to stop feeling?

Just for a moment. I want to stop feeling.

I want to sleep.
Sleep is illusive.
I want to let go

Of all of the crazy heartbeat action that is going on in my s chest

I'd like to be reasonable.
And sane

Because I made the choice not to break up over this.
It is the right choice

Ending things would not make me feel one but better.

I would feel better.... Shit I don't even know.

I know that there isn't anything he could say to make me feel better.

I don't there's nothing I can tell myself to make me feel better.

I think I should pray some more.

Why the fuck is he sponsoring her?!!