January 22 daily reflection

 Jan 22-"walked the AA path out of hell by packaging their lives into 24 hr segments... Few principles..best of abilities."

I'm getting better at this. With the added reflection that the present is the gift. I package my little bits of time and apply whatever sobriety principal comes to mind. I start with a prayer in which I lead with gratitude, and let the rest fly by trying to make "the next correct move" I lean heavily on the readings and principles which my peers stress are important, and try to forget my own ideas of correctness. For my best thinking reduced my existence to broken broken body in a hospital, without even the strength to make correct choices.

It's not always an entire 24hours. I've learned it's okay to pause anytime and restart a new bundle, smaller bundle of time. There are days it's just til the train gets me to the office. Or just the afternoon or evening.

Part 3 Jan 22. 

I'm coming to terms with my relapse. It  itself is a reset. Continuing my journey one day at a time. I long for an easy solution. Some steps to take to make sure I have a long life, with predictable progress. I wish there was an easy way to obtain humility. Integrity. Mental health. But that is not the nature of this plight. We are granted a daily repreive. Or an hourly one. But I can look back at prior days. Seeing the harder ones that I have emerged from victorious. The victory is one over true small bundle of time that the Rockstar has blessed me with. My prayer: thank you for being Rockstar. Thank you for my life. Please help me through this day. Please help me be kind,  or at least not do any harm today. Watch my mouth. Grow my faith. Bless Kamen and Jadon, and the monsters. Today will be a good day.