March 3 reflection

More on God bearing the burden of our problems. The question: am I good nh to keep my bargain with God? Again. The idea or bartering gives me pause. I have no leverage in any situation with the Rockstar. Instead Im just going to worship and be grateful for another 24. May more be revealed to me on bargaining with a supreme being... I don't see how that's a reality right now. 

feb 28 reflection

The writer refers to the dilemma I wrote about yesterday. Taking my will back puts us back in the same mess. Question: do I trust God to take care of the problem? Yes I do. I know from experience nothing but God works. I do takey will back but I need to hand it over to the Rockstar. She's the only one who can handle it. 

feb 27 reflection

The writer describes when we first started our journeys we realized we had no power over the drink. We didn't choose to pick up. We always picked up. Now we have to trust God, we turned the whole thing over. Question: have I done that?

Me- most days I do. But it's always on purpose. I have to hand it over multiple times a day. Sometimes I have to pause and start the day again in my head. Praying that God will take it from me as I hand it over. I remember before I relapsed, sometimes it was automatic. It's not automatic now. I have to make the effort all the time. 

feb 26 reflection

The writer describes how we came to believe in God. Question: do I believe each AA er is a demonstration of the power of God to change someone. Me- I used to rely on this belief for my own journey. But now God has given me my own story, my own testimony of her power to change, me  a drunkard into a sober person. 

Feb 25 reflection

The writer writes that with believing in God, you are atheist which relies on a belief that's even more unrealistic. That this is all random. Question do I remember the things that happened to be because of the power of alcohol? 

Me- Yes I do! Horrible events that I won't list here but it's safe to say, one of the rewards of sobriety is that of all the things life will throw at me. I won't have to go through those again.

Feb 24 reflection

February 23 reflection