Feeling discontented

Don't know why.
The African wants to go to counseling.
Have I sabotaged this good thing?
Does it have to do with my disease?
I find joy and love from this man.
I love him.
Do I deserve love?
I have a dream that woke me up feeling weird.
I dreamt I was on a team of janitors.
There was something going on.
I had a secret of some kind.
And a cat. B but the cat lived in the work van.
I adopted him. His name was Chloe or something, andi was going to move him into my apartment, when I got one...

Not sure why I was upset when I woke up.

I need to pray more.
I'm unhappy work my body.
I'm learning to accept it
I'm walking with a friend tomorrow.

I'm going to learn about commercial insurance on my own.
I'm going to go on that direction.
I think I'll find networking easier.

I need to perfect my pitch to mortgage brokers. I'm going to cold call them.